To: You

 March 17th 2017

Hi, it’s cold outside and I guess you prefer to stay at home because I know you hate the raindrops and it will remind you of someone in the past. Haha

This is so random and I do not know what to say to you.  It just what’s in my mind when the song ‘symphony’ by clean bandit featuring Zara larsson played randomly from my playlist. The lyrics makes me smile and remember your face and all the moments we spent together just pop up on my head. I think I’m gonna love this song as much as I love myself that I love you. LOL

Did you remember the first time we met? The time we smiled at each others. And at night, you texted me just wanted to know that I was home then you said good night. Maybe it’s just a little thing but you have to know that it changes my life.

I thank you for everything you do since that. You always try to make some simple jokes that always make me laugh, offer me some help eventhough I don't ask for help and I can do it by myself, remember all the things I like and I hate even it’s not important for you, I guess. I also thank God that He let me met you so we can be friend. I don’t know why this happened in my life. I still wonder why can I met you because this feels so right!

You came and seemed try to complete my emptiness. You came and changed the colour of my life. It was grey because I didn't want to turn it into white or black that I thought life is just a fool. So you told me that life is just not about grey and showed me another amazing colours. I’m not telling that you are a painter (don’t laugh because I’m not joking anymore), I just feel that you are so different because I’ve never met someone like you.

Once you told me, on shinny day when I tried my new pink lipstick, you felt that there is something different in our friendship. You told me you found the one that you’ve been looking for so long. I didn’t understand and just smiled at you. You look at my eyes, oh it was so awkward at that time. Then you asked me why do you let yourself alone and lonely? I said I just enjoy being alone and I think no one could change it.

“I can show you what happiness is.”

We never talk anything seriously, so I’m not taking it seriously.

I really never think about that day anymore until I hear the song I mentioned earlier. This is so wrong and we are not just a friend. You are right, there is something different between us. I feel like I was incomplete when I’m without you. I thought the solitude was the only one that can make me happy. You are right, you show me what happiness is because being with you is all about happiness. I do not trust anybody because it was hurt when you know that that was just a word but you never tell a lie. You showed me the truth. I never thought I would find this feeling. I like your smile, your laugh, I like when we are arguing but there were always jokes between those arguments then we laugh at the end. I realized something, there where many things and times for us to end this but we never did it and we are getting more closer and closer everyday. Is this just a friendship?

This is not a love letter, anyway. I just want to tell you that you made me happy, really, really, really happy when we are together. Everyday we spent was the best day in my life. I know this is too much but I’m not trying to tease you, though. So please don’t laugh when you read this.

I’m telling you the truth. Maybe you are the one that I’ve been looking for like you said to me before. You find me and I feel so lucky that I was found by the one that I’ve waited for so long. Thanks for showing me something sweeter than solitude. I knew, it is love.